When I launched this website 12 years ago, I didn’t have a clue what I wanted to do with it. As I’m going through another startup — a YouTube show called David McElroy Live — I remember how lost I felt when I started here.
Tom Briscoe had done political cartoons — very good ones — for a newspaper I had owned many moons ago. In early 2011, we got together for lunch to catch up after not seeing each other for a long time. Tom told me that I really needed to start a website to put my writing online.
I was intrigued, but the idea also scared me. What would I write about? What if nobody ever read what I wrote? Would I be humiliated if I failed?
With Tom’s help, I got my site set up. The first things I wrote were awful. I had no audience. I had no concept for what I was trying to do. I averaged 66 page views a day during that month. I was afraid I’d never find an audience or a niche that made sense.
Now I’m starting a live YouTube show and I have the same fears.
I don’t have a clear concept of what I’m going to do. I’m afraid I won’t be interesting. I’m afraid I won’t be able to attract an audience. For the first time in a long time, I’m a clueless beginner once more.