The scariest thing I’ve ever done is confronting the parts of myself which could have turned me into a malignant narcissist.
I’ve talked about this before. It wasn’t until about 10 years ago that I even understood what clinical narcissism is. I had no idea the term applied to my father. I had no idea that growing up with a narcissistic parent damages children in predictable ways. I had no idea that many of those children turn into narcissists. And I had absolutely no idea that I was in danger of going down the same path.
Confronting that truth was painful and terrifying — and working my way through making changes was even scarier — but seeing the dysfunctional parts of yourself is always painful and terrifying.
I found that social media is the place that exposes many destructive narcissists — and I also found that social media is a dangerous minefield for those of us who are dealing with the fallout from having been raised by narcissists.
For some of us, loss of trust is a deep existential threat to heart
A year later, my father’s death looms large, but I have no regrets
Being loved is one of life’s gifts, but joy of loving is even greater
Without things to look forward to, the human heart gets ready to die