{"id":26340,"date":"2018-12-15T17:37:12","date_gmt":"2018-12-15T23:37:12","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.davidmcelroy.org\/?p=26340"},"modified":"2022-09-26T02:09:27","modified_gmt":"2022-09-26T07:09:27","slug":"films-terrible-tortured-protagonist-feels-uncomfortably-familiar-to-me","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/davidmcelroy.org\/?p=26340","title":{"rendered":"Film\u2019s tortured protagonist feels uncomfortably familiar to me"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Arlen Faber is supposed to be the guy who knows everything. Years ago, he wrote a best-selling spiritual book called “Me and God.” He never wrote anything else, but everybody wants to meet the man who’s so wise and so close to God.<\/p>\n

The only problem is that Faber avoids the world. He feels like a fraud. He hates people and has nothing new to say. He’s an unhappy recluse who lives in anonymity — until circumstances conspire to bring some new people into his life and turn everything upside down.<\/p>\n

“The Answer Man” didn’t get great reviews when it was released in 2009, but it quickly became one of my favorite movies — all because I felt an awful, uncomfortable sense of identification with Faber’s character. His story isn’t mine. The terrible way he treats people isn’t the way I treat people. His overt anger and language aren’t like me.<\/p>\n

But something in the story of a tortured character who is forced to come to terms with who he really is — in ways that require him to admit that he doesn’t have all the answers — resonated with me in an emotional way. I watched it again last night and I had the same irrational and emotional reaction to it.<\/p>\n

What movie tells the story of your life? I realize that no movie tells your actual story \u2014 unless someone’s made a bio-pic of your life \u2014 but there are sometimes movies that we can strangely identify with, even if the plot line is nothing like what\u2019s actually happened to us.<\/p>\n

Maybe we strongly identify with a character (for good or bad). Maybe it shows a lesson we\u2019ve learned or a lesson we know we need to learn. There can be a lot of reasons.<\/p>\n

Do you have any movie like that for your own life?<\/p>\n

Although there are movies (and characters) I would prefer to identify with, I still have this inexplicable feeling of identifying with Faber’s character — and I’ve known since I first saw the movie that I need to learn something from him.<\/p>\n

It’s considered a romantic comedy, but the Faber character is far too relatable for me to laugh at it too much, even though the over-the-top portrayal of someone who hates the world is an exaggeration of anything I’ve ever felt. When I watch the film, I go back and forth between shame at the portrayal of some things I see as my own inner faults when I hide from the world and emotional delight and hope as Faber takes a chance on becoming vulnerable and growing in order to win the love of a woman and her young son.<\/p>\n

Toward the end of the film, Faber faces a crowd in a book store for the first time in years. They’re pressing him for wise answers to their problems. He finally tells the truth.<\/p>\n

“I’m not a guy with answers,”<\/em> he suddenly cries out with both frustration and relief.<\/p>\n

“So you’re just like the rest of us,”<\/em> asks the book store owner.<\/p>\n

“Uh, not yet, but I’m trying,”<\/em> Faber responds as he slips away from the crowd.<\/p>\n

I can’t tell you exactly why I identify with this movie so much. Part of it is his longstanding disdain for others and his fear of being seen as a fraud. Another part is his intense loneliness and his struggle to become acceptable to a woman when he finally meets someone who’s everything he’s wanted.<\/p>\n

But in all of that, nothing sums up what I identify with like that line from Faber about being as good as everybody else: “Not yet, but I’m trying.”<\/p>\n

I’ve been struggling for years to find the right way to accept who I am, for both good and bad. The things which made me exceptional in some ways were also the things which made me feel so separate from the world.<\/p>\n

I still haven’t worked out exactly how to be who I am but still connect with more people in emotionally healthy ways. I’m not there yet, but I’m trying.<\/p>\n

Note:<\/strong> You can see the trailer for “The Answer Man” here<\/a>. Reviews were mediocre, but I think it’s best seen as a life lesson for me rather than as a romantic comedy.\u00a0Jeff Daniels and Lauren Graham are the romantic leads. I don’t know where you could see the film these days, but I have a copy, so if you’re ever with me, I’ll share.<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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