{"id":30992,"date":"2020-01-01T00:01:58","date_gmt":"2020-01-01T06:01:58","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/davidmcelroy.org\/?p=30992"},"modified":"2020-01-01T00:01:58","modified_gmt":"2020-01-01T06:01:58","slug":"love-hope-episode-1-what-is-wrong-with-me","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/davidmcelroy.org\/?p=30992","title":{"rendered":"Love &#038; Hope \u2014\u00a0Episode 1:<br\/> \u2018What is wrong with me?!\u2019"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"https:\/\/davidmcelroy.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/12\/LoveHope-Episode-1-title.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter size-full wp-image-31001\" src=\"https:\/\/davidmcelroy.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/12\/LoveHope-Episode-1-title.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"460\" height=\"259\" srcset=\"https:\/\/davidmcelroy.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/12\/LoveHope-Episode-1-title.jpg 460w, https:\/\/davidmcelroy.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/12\/LoveHope-Episode-1-title-300x169.jpg 300w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 460px) 100vw, 460px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>Early in 2009, I entered a deep depression which kept me in a funk off and on for several years. I was miserable \u2014 and I was desperate to figure out why I had been sabotaging my life.<\/p>\n<p>I was forced to confront hidden flaws about myself that I hated. I had to dig into the toxic past of my dysfunctional family. I had to uncover things about myself that I had learned from my narcissistic father. I had to ask myself whether I was going to keep going down that path \u2014 or make serious changes while I still could. I knew I had to heal my broken psyche if I wanted love.<\/p>\n<p>And through it all, I kept asking myself, <em>\u201cWhat is wrong with me?!\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n<p><!--more-->Click or tap the \u201cplay\u201d button to listen. Or <a href=\"https:\/\/anchor.fm\/david-mcelroy\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\">listen here<\/a> instead.<\/p>\n<p><iframe loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/anchor.fm\/david-mcelroy\/embed\/episodes\/What-is-wrong-with-me-e9u5vb\/a-a18gp9b\" width=\"460px\" height=\"102px\" frameborder=\"0\" scrolling=\"no\"><span data-mce-type=\"bookmark\" style=\"display: inline-block; width: 0px; overflow: hidden; line-height: 0;\" class=\"mce_SELRES_start\">\ufeff<\/span><\/iframe><\/p>\n<p><em><strong>Note:<\/strong> The home page for Love &amp; Hope is <a href=\"https:\/\/anchor.fm\/david-mcelroy\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\">available here<\/a>, from which you can subscribe through one of several podcast directories, although I\u2019m still waiting for approval from the iTunes Podcast directory, which is the most important and widely available directory.<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Early in 2009, I entered a deep depression which kept me in a funk off and on for several years. I was miserable \u2014 and I was desperate to figure out why I had been sabotaging my life. I was forced to confront hidden flaws about myself that I hated. 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