The letter came by email. No name. A subject that said only, “Hello from the Past.” Just a message from a ghost who knew how to open old wounds.
It was only three paragraphs long, but I kept coming back to the final sentences.
“I will always love the man who loved me best, even though you won’t believe that and even though I’m sure you feel nothing for me now,” the letter said. “I miss your love and attention more than anybody knows.”
There was no signature. No clue. Just quiet regret and longing, poured out across an anonymous digital connection. There was no anger. No accusation. I keep reading the words over and over, wondering which woman wrote them — and wondering why she needed to send this.
She said she had run across a photo of me online which had triggered old feelings. She said she tries not to think about me anymore.
“You’re still a fire that draws me and now I can’t touch that fire, so I shouldn’t even look and let myself be tempted,” she wrote. “I feel this mostly when it’s late at night and I allow my brain to stop processing the distractions of my normal life. It makes me feel the almost uncontrollable urge to pick up the phone and call you again, but I know you probably wouldn’t want me to do that and probably wouldn’t answer if I did call.”
But who is she?

Watching kids on a Friday night reminds me of struggle to belong
How many warnings can life give us when something’s gone wrong?
Unconscious programming makes us eager to believe our own lies
If the kids are confused in school, maybe it’s the system and teachers
Beauty is everywhere around us, when our eyes are open to see it
Federal ‘help’ makes medical care more expensive and less available
I wasn’t ready for another dog, but Lucy needed a ‘forever home’
Once you’ve found the right love, build your whole world around her
I’ve now launched a new podcast about search for love and family