What if you suddenly realized the whole world has been reading your diary?
I’ve been feeling that way recently, because I’ve had reason to go through most of what I’ve written over the last 15 years. A handful of my old articles left me feeling that I communicated an important idea in a clear way. I was proud of a few of them.
But the overwhelming feeling I had was that I’ve spent years writing things that I wish I’d never shared with the world.
When I write and publish an article here, I almost never read it again. Maybe that is a reflection of my origins in the newspaper business. As a journalist, we would simply write and edit the best we could in the moment — then send it to the pressroom and get started on work for the next day.
Lately, I’ve been writing a book, so I wanted to go through what I’ve written to find ideas I’ve written about that might belong in the book. I found what I needed, but I also found things that made me feel as though I’d left a diary open for the world to read. And it was a diary filled with hurt and angst and need and anger.
It’s been disturbing — not that I felt those things, but that I’ve allowed others to see so clearly inside my mind and heart.

Outraged folks around world letting Diane Tran know she’s not alone
If no mortal can ever be perfect, should we even try to be good?
I feel despair about evil tonight, but my cats offer some comfort
Homeless honor student thrown into jail for missing too much school
Flashy ‘stimulus’ projects conceal truth that the state destroys wealth
It’s time to change my story and reinvent myself — one more time
Why do humans run away from things we really need the most?
‘You cannot love in moderation’; lukewarm love’s worse than none
Fiscal sanity is dead because most people are irrational hypocrites