I don’t really want to create things. Honestly, I don’t. In one way or another, I’ve fought it all my life. Creating is difficult. There’s tremendous risk of failure and embarrassment. There’s frequently not a lot of money in it (if at all). And it’s hard to explain to people what you do and who you really are.
I don’t want to put up with any of those things. I hate them. I’d rather be something easy to explain. I’d rather do something that other people were more willing to pay for. I’d rather do something that more readily gives me the money that a future wife wants.
But I don’t have any choice. I have to create things. When I don’t, I start dying.
As with so many creators, I struggle with the question of whether I’m an artist. Honestly, I’m afraid I am, but I feel like a fake to say so. Artists are those who paint or sculpt or do something that’s displayed in galleries. My work these days is mostly for myself or friends on Facebook or something for readers here. But am I actually a writer? Am I an artist?

I keep trying to find the light, but my choices leave me in darkness
GOP hypocrisy: It’s only ‘pork’ when federal spending is in other districts
Love drives us mad, but madness rescues us from ‘horrible sanity’
Am I betraying the truth if I don’t preach to the converted each day?
Love & Hope — Episode 5:
Police threaten to seize my camera for crime of public photography
Concerns about digital future leave me mourning analog past
What if other people see you or hear you differently than you do?
Obama: ‘…all the choices we’ve made have been the right ones…’