As I pulled up to the terminal at the Birmingham airport early Thursday morning, my eyes scanned for Concourse C. But something in my heart was unexpectedly scanning for something else.
I felt the tug of something from the past. From other trips to this place. From a love that was once powerful and overwhelming, but which has been dead for years.
I had come to the airport Thursday to drop a friend off for a flight to Houston for medical treatment. I used to fly through this building pretty regularly, but I hardly ever have reason to come to the airport anymore. But something about just coming to the terminal awakened memories of coming here to meet a woman who used to come see me.
Which concourse did her flights use?
I couldn’t remember. It didn’t matter, but that bothered me. My heart remembers joyfully embracing her as she arrived and feeling her slip away when she left each time. The memories were vivid this morning, but I stupidly debated whether it was Concourse A or Concourse B where these scenes took place.
It was easier to let my rational mind debate irrelevant details than it was to feel what my heart insisted on feeling.

Peace won’t come until you quit obeying long-gone programmers
Life as misunderstood stranger feels like walking through a fog
We project an image for others, but few see us as we really are
I swiftly judged her bad attitude, but I was slow to judge myself
No, Rodney King, people in this country can’t just ‘all get along’
Reality frequently doesn’t match fantasy when you know full story
Could we solve tough problems if we didn’t know they’re difficult?
Why am I shocked that a friend’s happy news makes me feel envy?
I still feel shame for wanting to pursue the desires of my heart