I knew I was dead, but I wasn’t upset about that. I just felt shame that I didn’t have more to show for the life I had left behind.
This was different from any dream I’ve ever had. It felt more real than anything from waking life. At times, it was more beautiful and loving than anything I’ve experienced on this Earth. At other times, it was painful and I felt shame.
But I was asleep — and I’m not dead — so it had to be a dream.
This was the second time lately that I’ve dreamed about my death. The first time, I just dreamed that I had died. I saw my body as though I was a spirit who had left it. But the second time — this past Saturday night — was much more than that. It was a dream about meeting God and talking about the life I had left behind.
I was in the most beautiful place I’ve ever seen, but I can’t describe it. The scene was dominated, though, by an intense light that was unlike anything I’ve ever seen. It was brighter than any light I’ve experienced, but it didn’t hurt my eyes to look at it.
From that light, I felt what 19th century minister Charles Finney called “waves and waves of liquid love.” I felt small. I felt ashamed of my inadequacy. But I knew that this Creator of all the universe loved me unconditionally. I knew that this place was my home.

‘I know who you are,’ she said. ‘Do you know who you really are?’
Without motivation, dreams fade,
We all see bits and pieces of reality; not a one of us sees whole picture
Will we build a loving world or will we focus on hate and hell?
Does change really come quickly? Or do we finally accept the truth?
Sometimes we should ignore idiots who yell about non-existent racism
THE McELROY ZOO: Meet Oliver, the furball who taught me to love cats
UPDATE: Judge drops charges against Diane Tran; $100,000 raised
We’re trapped in our own heads, fearful of other folks’ judgment