As I waited to pull onto U.S. 11 just a few miles from my house Wednesday evening, there didn’t seem to be anything unusual about it. The highway is busy that time of day, with two lanes of traffic in each direction and a turn lane in the middle. I’ve crossed those lanes hundreds of times, and I had no way of knowing this time was going to be different.
Traffic was heavy, but I was going to have time to cross to the other side if I timed it well. Just as I pulled out, though, an oncoming car did something I didn’t expect. I accelerated to get out of the way, barreling into the turn lane, where a car coming from another direction had just unexpectedly moved. I changed directions once again and ended up in yet another lane, startling another driver.
I’d almost hit at least three cars. I pulled off the road to think about this.
When a doctor first diagnosed me with breast cancer two weeks ago and said I had to have surgery, I expected to go through changing emotions in the days leading up to the experience. But knowing that and experiencing it are two entirely different things. Four days before I’m scheduled to be cut on next Monday, I can say I’ve had a number of emotions creep up on me unexpectedly.

Childhood programming makes it hard to believe I’m ‘good enough’
Media and mass hysteria lead us into madness of celebrity worship
The hole is always there, but I foolishly hope it’ll just go away
Choose the person you don’t want to spend your life without
He couldn’t mold her into himself, but my dad broke Mother’s spirit
EU Nanny State bans young kids from evil balloons and whistles
As I faced my father’s narcissism, I had to confront who I’d become
Healthy partner will always ask, ‘Who do you really want to be?’