I had a disturbing realization Sunday. I have no motivation right now.
I was reading a book which lays out a detailed plan for achieving success in a particular business field. It’s something I’ve recently started pursuing with the encouragement of a friend who’s in the business. I should be able to make a lot of money doing it. But the writer brought up a foundational question: Why are you doing this? What’s your motivation?
That’s when it hit me that I haven’t had any motivation for years. I’ve had brief periods during which I started feeling motivated — only to have it fade immediately when a woman left my life. That’s when I realized the obvious. I feel no motivation when I’m alone.
I haven’t had anyone in my life who I wanted to achieve things for — and I seem to be as weak without that as Samson was without his hair.

There’s magic in the dark solitude and quiet stillness after midnight
Without peaceful breakup plan, U.S. faces violent, angry collapse
Why is it ‘isolationism’ to oppose killing those who didn’t attack us?
In Northern Ireland, Obama attacks church schools as source of division
Unhappiness can’t hide forever when life has gone very wrong
Is Obama playing politics with war on terror? Of course, just as Bush did
Market failure? Why do we have so many overeducated people?
Watching a friend’s happy family makes me feel pangs of jealousy