I had a disturbing realization Sunday. I have no motivation right now.
I was reading a book which lays out a detailed plan for achieving success in a particular business field. It’s something I’ve recently started pursuing with the encouragement of a friend who’s in the business. I should be able to make a lot of money doing it. But the writer brought up a foundational question: Why are you doing this? What’s your motivation?
That’s when it hit me that I haven’t had any motivation for years. I’ve had brief periods during which I started feeling motivated — only to have it fade immediately when a woman left my life. That’s when I realized the obvious. I feel no motivation when I’m alone.
I haven’t had anyone in my life who I wanted to achieve things for — and I seem to be as weak without that as Samson was without his hair.

What if writing from the ‘AI me’ sounds just like I’d written it?
If we disrespect skilled trades, we’re ignorant and arrogant fools
Why can beauty hurt so much? Why do I see her face in the sky?
People who invoke ‘fairness’ generally just mean, ‘Do things my way — or else’
Against all rational choice of will, an old hunger in my heart returns
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Florida requires drivers to hand over personal info — which it then sells