I sometimes disappoint myself. I guess we all do sometimes, but I don’t know what it’s like to be inside your secret thoughts. I can’t see the dark lust you might have hidden in your heart.
But I know the dark longings that come from my ego — and I often have to remind myself who I am. And what my values are.
I crave attention. I lust for success. I want money and adulation from others. Despite the insecure parts of me which question my value, my ego secretly whispers that I deserve all these things. Deep down, I believe I’m great.
In such moments of weakness, I have to remind myself what matters.
Let me tell you about an artist who I admire greatly. There’s an excellent chance you’ve never heard of Steve Taylor. He was a brilliant rock musician in the 1980s and early ’90s whose music was aimed at the Christian market. He rocked hard. His lyrics were razor-sharp and witty. He mocked sacred cows inside the church and in modern culture, too.
Only a small group of weirdos in the church understood what he was doing. Most people were scandalized by him or simply didn’t understand what it was all about. I loved his work.

It’s odd how ‘choice’ can mean ‘no choice’ with the state involved
Uh, oh: For first time since ’45, U.S. job growth was zero last month
Love & Hope — Episode 8:
Your ignored mistakes quickly become impossible to change
Reaction to Penn State scandal shows danger of putting leaders on pedestal
Black? White? Brown? Santa Claus is any color you want to make him
Get over it: There’s no media conspiracy against your beliefs
Life is like flying a plane as you assemble it from a box of parts
Death of classmate from past feels like a reminder to change my life