I went to see the new movie “Moms’ Night Out” Friday. This family-friendly comedy isn’t something I’d normally see, but the film was shot in Birmingham by local directors and producers, so I wanted to see how many locations I recognized and how I liked their work.
I enjoyed seeing local streets and buildings that I know well, so I’m glad I went. I’m not really the target market for the movie, but it will probably do well for a low-budget family comedy (even though the reviews have been pretty brutal).
When I got home, I happened to put something down on the mantle above my fireplace. When I picked it up a couple of minutes later, I stood there for a minute and stared at some things I normally forget are even there — the awards that my one and only short film won almost 10 years ago.
I stood there and just stared, as though I was seeing them for the first time. And I berated myself once more for not making anything since then.
I shot “We’re the Government — and You’re Not” in December of 2004. Post-production was finally finished by the beginning of June 2005 and I started entering it into film festivals. Over the next 18 months or so, it was shown at 20 festivals and won five awards. In addition to U.S. festivals, it was screened in Canada, England, Australia and New Zealand.
Although it was my first film and I bumbled my way through the process at times, it was more successful than I ever dreamed it could be. It’s been seen on YouTube by close to 350,000 people since then.
As I stood there looking at a few of the awards Friday evening, I wasn’t sure whether to feel angry or ashamed for not having done another film. I saw myself as a filmmaker at the time. I have at least half a dozen scripts at various stages of development, ideas that I’m happy with and think would be good films. So why haven’t I done anything else?
What do you do when it feels as though your entire world is over?
Love & Hope — Episode 6:
Lack of specific needs and wants makes my world feel meaningless
I’m weary of degenerate society where my values aren’t welcome
All I wanted was to be your hero, but I still haven’t found my way
Storms can end without warning, bringing hope of blue skies ahead
‘Make no little plans. They have no magic to stir men’s blood… Make big plans’
Fallen world keeps bruising me, but I still believe love will win
If you can’t change your life story, that narrative will become destiny