I sometimes disappoint myself. I guess we all do sometimes, but I don’t know what it’s like to be inside your secret thoughts. I can’t see the dark lust you might have hidden in your heart.
But I know the dark longings that come from my ego — and I often have to remind myself who I am. And what my values are.
I crave attention. I lust for success. I want money and adulation from others. Despite the insecure parts of me which question my value, my ego secretly whispers that I deserve all these things. Deep down, I believe I’m great.
In such moments of weakness, I have to remind myself what matters.
Let me tell you about an artist who I admire greatly. There’s an excellent chance you’ve never heard of Steve Taylor. He was a brilliant rock musician in the 1980s and early ’90s whose music was aimed at the Christian market. He rocked hard. His lyrics were razor-sharp and witty. He mocked sacred cows inside the church and in modern culture, too.
Only a small group of weirdos in the church understood what he was doing. Most people were scandalized by him or simply didn’t understand what it was all about. I loved his work.

All I wanted was to be your hero, but I still haven’t found my way
Unexpected meeting forces me to believe I might fall in love again
Trip to Memory Lane reminds me some relationships deserve to die
Just underneath a civilized veneer, savage conqueror lives in my DNA
My books are time machines that tell you where (and who) I’ve been
‘Please do not adjust your set’
Why are churches only talking about freedom as it relates to abortion?
Eviction leaves me sifting through collateral damage of a broken life
The so-called ‘social contract’ just means ‘the rest of us own you’