I don’t really want to create things. Honestly, I don’t. In one way or another, I’ve fought it all my life. Creating is difficult. There’s tremendous risk of failure and embarrassment. There’s frequently not a lot of money in it (if at all). And it’s hard to explain to people what you do and who you really are.
I don’t want to put up with any of those things. I hate them. I’d rather be something easy to explain. I’d rather do something that other people were more willing to pay for. I’d rather do something that more readily gives me the money that a future wife wants.
But I don’t have any choice. I have to create things. When I don’t, I start dying.
As with so many creators, I struggle with the question of whether I’m an artist. Honestly, I’m afraid I am, but I feel like a fake to say so. Artists are those who paint or sculpt or do something that’s displayed in galleries. My work these days is mostly for myself or friends on Facebook or something for readers here. But am I actually a writer? Am I an artist?

My heart longs for a future that’s more real to me than the dim past
I’m losing need to explain myself to those who misunderstand me
Childhood programming makes it hard to believe I’m ‘good enough’
Lousy personal choices are at root of most of our problems
God watches humanity’s struggle and says, ‘You’re doing it wrong’
AUDIO: I need to reject a popular but emotionally dangerous path
If you ask wrong questions about politics, you’ll get wrong answers
Major parties compete to see who can tell the biggest lie about jobs