I had a disturbing realization Sunday. I have no motivation right now.
I was reading a book which lays out a detailed plan for achieving success in a particular business field. It’s something I’ve recently started pursuing with the encouragement of a friend who’s in the business. I should be able to make a lot of money doing it. But the writer brought up a foundational question: Why are you doing this? What’s your motivation?
That’s when it hit me that I haven’t had any motivation for years. I’ve had brief periods during which I started feeling motivated — only to have it fade immediately when a woman left my life. That’s when I realized the obvious. I feel no motivation when I’m alone.
I haven’t had anyone in my life who I wanted to achieve things for — and I seem to be as weak without that as Samson was without his hair.

Separating religion, spirituality makes it harder to find the Truth
My life will matter only if I can show love and meaning to others
If you must be ‘good enough,’ you’ll never start to be yourself
How did memory get it wrong? Why did I edit truth about her?
Finding your own authentic voice is riskier than copying everybody else
Goodbye, William (1999-2015)
After years of wasting my life, sands of time are slipping away
Knowing right choice years later is useless without time machine
I don’t claim to know the solution, but the modern church has failed