I sometimes disappoint myself. I guess we all do sometimes, but I don’t know what it’s like to be inside your secret thoughts. I can’t see the dark lust you might have hidden in your heart.
But I know the dark longings that come from my ego — and I often have to remind myself who I am. And what my values are.
I crave attention. I lust for success. I want money and adulation from others. Despite the insecure parts of me which question my value, my ego secretly whispers that I deserve all these things. Deep down, I believe I’m great.
In such moments of weakness, I have to remind myself what matters.
Let me tell you about an artist who I admire greatly. There’s an excellent chance you’ve never heard of Steve Taylor. He was a brilliant rock musician in the 1980s and early ’90s whose music was aimed at the Christian market. He rocked hard. His lyrics were razor-sharp and witty. He mocked sacred cows inside the church and in modern culture, too.
Only a small group of weirdos in the church understood what he was doing. Most people were scandalized by him or simply didn’t understand what it was all about. I loved his work.

I’m exhausted and numb from placing trust in the wrong people
Does the ocean offer the best chance of escaping the state?
OK, morons, we’ll finally admit it: We really are smarter than you
Corrupt Trump isn’t even hiding half-billion dollar bribe anymore
I fear nobody will come with me as I start down a difficult path
Until I can have the family I need, I’ll spend my Thanksgiving alone
We have no choice but to trust even in face of betrayal and hurt
Could we solve tough problems if we didn’t know they’re difficult?
What if I hadn’t been afraid to follow Paul Finebaum’s advice 20 years ago?