I had a disturbing realization Sunday. I have no motivation right now.
I was reading a book which lays out a detailed plan for achieving success in a particular business field. It’s something I’ve recently started pursuing with the encouragement of a friend who’s in the business. I should be able to make a lot of money doing it. But the writer brought up a foundational question: Why are you doing this? What’s your motivation?
That’s when it hit me that I haven’t had any motivation for years. I’ve had brief periods during which I started feeling motivated — only to have it fade immediately when a woman left my life. That’s when I realized the obvious. I feel no motivation when I’m alone.
I haven’t had anyone in my life who I wanted to achieve things for — and I seem to be as weak without that as Samson was without his hair.

My father’s narcissistic abuse led to my mother’s attempt to kill him
How could we take responsibility but avoid self-destructive shame?
If we’re seduced by our desires, we often follow devil in disguise
Missing childhood connections leave us longing for missing love
Double standards seem like the only standards most politicians know
Don’t trust this con man — or almost anybody else on ‘TV news’