And here, she’s acting happy
Inside her handsome home
— Harry Chapin, “Taxi”
I don’t know who the email came from. He or she claims I don’t know the sender, so I have no idea what the motivations were. But I’ve been thinking about it for days.
The message was short. It was about a woman who used to love me. Someone who I’ve loved very much — but someone who didn’t choose me when I wanted her to.
After a brief introduction, the writer got to the heart of the matter.
“You don’t know me, but I know all about you,” the message said. “She’s unhappy and depressed, maybe suicidal, though she hides it well. She acts happy and fakes it well most of the time, but I’ve seen through the cracks and she’s about to fall apart. She’s too proud to change anything, but I’m scared about what she might do. I don’t know why I’m telling you this, but I thought you should know.”
And I’m left to wonder why I should know.

Best years of our lives? For me, teen years were start of feeling like alien
Objective reality has now become offensive in dysfunctional culture
My programming from childhood still equates blame with shame
I’m not certain artists ever get to be themselves when they perform
From hole I’ve fallen into today, world is a very alienating place
I hate the intense pain, but I don’t know how to live without longing
Vile human cost of war ignored by Americans playing political games