I don’t really want to create things. Honestly, I don’t. In one way or another, I’ve fought it all my life. Creating is difficult. There’s tremendous risk of failure and embarrassment. There’s frequently not a lot of money in it (if at all). And it’s hard to explain to people what you do and who you really are.
I don’t want to put up with any of those things. I hate them. I’d rather be something easy to explain. I’d rather do something that other people were more willing to pay for. I’d rather do something that more readily gives me the money that a future wife wants.
But I don’t have any choice. I have to create things. When I don’t, I start dying.
As with so many creators, I struggle with the question of whether I’m an artist. Honestly, I’m afraid I am, but I feel like a fake to say so. Artists are those who paint or sculpt or do something that’s displayed in galleries. My work these days is mostly for myself or friends on Facebook or something for readers here. But am I actually a writer? Am I an artist?

I still have trouble accepting that my idealized world doesn’t exist
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Lesson from U2: Rejection doesn’t necessarily mean it’s time to give up
Ghost from my past haunts me, but leaves me without answers
Freedom lovers, why do so many of you still blindly trust the GOP?
Feral cats and hurt people both require trust and patience to heal
Living a sane and healthy life is now radical by world’s standards
Hurt people hurt people, and it’s hard to forgive that in ourselves
Our reactions to others’ suicides say something about how we view life