I didn’t think anybody could possibly be more critical of me than I am of myself, but I discovered tonight that I was mistaken.
I learned as a child to be harshly critical of myself and to blame myself for everything, whether I was responsible for it or not. These days, I’m still strongly inclined to concentrate on my faults and weaknesses. If you’ve paid attention to what I’ve written here, you already know this, though.
I received a nasty anonymous email tonight. No matter how much my own internal dialogue attacks me, I now know that someone out there has a much deeper and more vicious dislike for me than my childhood programming implanted.
It hurts to be attacked on such a personal level. Seriously. On that score, this cowardly attacker scored a bullseye. For a few minutes, I was really, really hurt. Maybe that will make someone happy.

‘What’s the worth of one warm smile? Go and ask the dead man’
Do you obey petty rules? Or do you fight The Man in hopes of change?
Tradeoffs about values leave me feeling like ‘double-minded man’
We’re neither friends nor enemies, just strangers who share the past
‘This path leads to somewhere I think I can finally say, I’m home’
When love finally dies, it’s like a fever breaks and the pain is gone
Hidden crisis of missing intimacy leaves many ‘together all alone’
We all see bits and pieces of reality; not a one of us sees whole picture
‘Post-racial’ America? We’re nowhere close to that — and may never be