The letter came by email. No name. A subject that said only, “Hello from the Past.” Just a message from a ghost who knew how to open old wounds.
It was only three paragraphs long, but I kept coming back to the final sentences.
“I will always love the man who loved me best, even though you won’t believe that and even though I’m sure you feel nothing for me now,” the letter said. “I miss your love and attention more than anybody knows.”
There was no signature. No clue. Just quiet regret and longing, poured out across an anonymous digital connection. There was no anger. No accusation. I keep reading the words over and over, wondering which woman wrote them — and wondering why she needed to send this.
She said she had run across a photo of me online which had triggered old feelings. She said she tries not to think about me anymore.
“You’re still a fire that draws me and now I can’t touch that fire, so I shouldn’t even look and let myself be tempted,” she wrote. “I feel this mostly when it’s late at night and I allow my brain to stop processing the distractions of my normal life. It makes me feel the almost uncontrollable urge to pick up the phone and call you again, but I know you probably wouldn’t want me to do that and probably wouldn’t answer if I did call.”
But who is she?

I want to help out of pure love, but human motives are messy
I can’t get over this terrible feeling that I need to talk to you on video
We’re all going to die, but what do you want to do before you die?
In ’98, Ron Paul warned U.S. policy was leading to terrorist attacks
Out-of-touch Keynesians still think ‘digging ditches’ is a good idea
Obama’s delusion about ‘explaining’ illustrates all-too-common narcissism
Suicide’s what happens when you can’t find reasons to keep living
Sad, but true: Neither Ron Paul nor any libertarian has chance to win