It was just an odd computer glitch. Something with a reasonable explanation. It has to be. But I’ve sat here for the last hour or so looking at a photo I didn’t intend to find tonight. And it pushed some unexpected emotional buttons.
I wanted to find a photo on my MacBook from about 20 years ago, so I typed in a file-name search. Instead of things related to what I was looking for, the system turned up five photos that were completely unrelated to that. At the top of the list was a photo from seven years ago. I didn’t open it.
Then I worded the search an entirely different way. It gave me a handful of files again. At the top was the same photo which had been at the top of the search before. I felt mesmerized by the weirdness of what I was seeing, so I opened the file, even though I knew what it would be.
There were two faces. One was my face. The other face was that of a beautiful woman who I used to know.

Rational rules don’t apply when the state gives itself a monopoly
Everything sounded fair at the time, so why’d I end up paying for it all?
Politicians sometimes lie even when they know they’ll be caught
World is an insane roller coaster and I need this insanity to stop
I accept others’ amateur media, but I expect myself to be a pro
AUDIO: We lose the love we need by letting imperfections scare us
I’m still hungry for healthy love that my 5-year-old self craved
Heart that truly loves is a servant for another’s happiness and peace
Mom of out-of-control teen thug must share blame for ugly arrest