I had a disturbing realization Sunday. I have no motivation right now.
I was reading a book which lays out a detailed plan for achieving success in a particular business field. It’s something I’ve recently started pursuing with the encouragement of a friend who’s in the business. I should be able to make a lot of money doing it. But the writer brought up a foundational question: Why are you doing this? What’s your motivation?
That’s when it hit me that I haven’t had any motivation for years. I’ve had brief periods during which I started feeling motivated — only to have it fade immediately when a woman left my life. That’s when I realized the obvious. I feel no motivation when I’m alone.
I haven’t had anyone in my life who I wanted to achieve things for — and I seem to be as weak without that as Samson was without his hair.

Starved for love: Portrait of a plastic person living a little plastic life
Normal days often turn to terror when you live with a narcissist
My reaction to man’s home taught me more about me than about him
Only certainty of life is that every one of us crosses River Styx alone
Here’s the jobs growth Obama promised—in federal workers
Fear of possible violence keeps some people trapped by misery
What if the best you can offer to someone will never be enough?
I choose love over hate, because the author of the story’s not done