As I drove home from work Friday afternoon, I suddenly realized I was feeling anger. I felt confused about the reason for a moment and then it hit me. I was feeling a combination of anger and despair about something in my personal life which I can’t control.
For a few moments, I let the emotions fill me and I felt them clearly in my body. Then my muscles relaxed. The strength of the anger faded. I still felt despair over something I couldn’t control, but I felt peace.
I used to be a lot angrier than I am today. I was angry at the world and wanted to force it to change. I wanted to fix the world. I wanted to save the world. I was angry about various things in my life — about love, about money, about family, about all sorts of things. I wanted to scheme and manipulate everything in ways to change other people.
About a lot of things, I felt tremendously angry. At times, I felt as though the anger was driving me. But as I’ve gotten older, I’ve let go of most of the anger. It still flares up at times — as it did tonight — but I’m far more likely to see the things I hate in the world through the lens of sadness than anger.
Maturity heals a lot of anger. Maturity embraces melancholy.
Beauty is everywhere around us, when our eyes are open to see it
Who’s the hero of Chick-fil-A wars? Rachel set an example for all of us
Identity politics is the cancer behind Elizabeth Warren’s lie about ancestry
We’re neither friends nor enemies, just strangers who share the past
Society needs storytellers to help make sense of a changing world
My bad teen poetry suggests I’ve always hungered for missing love
In an age when lies are expected, integrity matters more than ever
If he cheats at Cracker Barrel, he’ll eventually cheat you, too
If you’re out of place somewhere, nobody’s going to be very happy