Almost every day, I find myself disappointed about things I wrote four or five years ago — but I think that’s a good thing.
Even though I don’t publish many new articles anymore, my old ones are read hundreds and hundreds of times each day. The software I use tells me which articles are most popular each day and how many times each was read. The idea is that writers can see which things are attracting an audience and write more things like that.
In my case, though, I feel as though the numbers — and the old headlines — mostly serve to mock me. I certainly don’t shape my writing by what people want to read. Instead, the old titles serve as a roadmap showing how my ideas and my priorities have shifted radically since I started writing here.
The old things I wrote remind me how shallow my priorities once were.
Old articles frequently become popular again for reasons I’ll never know. Someone presumably finds something through an online search and then shares it on social media, where it will sometimes be shared enough to attracts tens of thousands of readers in a brief period.
There are times when it’s not so bad. Other times, the title jumps out at me and makes something inside me ask in an accusing voice, “Why did you ever bother to write that?”

The world becomes magical when the right person says, ‘I love you’
Leopards might not change spots, but cowardly lions can gain courage
As financial pain piles up, things just might turn ugly in America
I’m looking at myself in mirror and asking difficult questions
I hate the intense pain, but I don’t know how to live without longing
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Financial crisis seems serious when it hits your own neighbors
There’s pain in many faces I see, as reality doesn’t match dreams
Why can it feel strange to lose homes we haven’t seen for years?