I had a disturbing realization Sunday. I have no motivation right now.
I was reading a book which lays out a detailed plan for achieving success in a particular business field. It’s something I’ve recently started pursuing with the encouragement of a friend who’s in the business. I should be able to make a lot of money doing it. But the writer brought up a foundational question: Why are you doing this? What’s your motivation?
That’s when it hit me that I haven’t had any motivation for years. I’ve had brief periods during which I started feeling motivated — only to have it fade immediately when a woman left my life. That’s when I realized the obvious. I feel no motivation when I’m alone.
I haven’t had anyone in my life who I wanted to achieve things for — and I seem to be as weak without that as Samson was without his hair.

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Sex abuse of powerless rampant; denying its serious harm obscene
Sharing mundane details of life is underrated joy of loving someone
Getting better at all I do is only way to fight ‘imposter syndrome’
To think clearly, turn off the tube: Your television is not your friend
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Objective reality has now become offensive in dysfunctional culture