I don’t really want to create things. Honestly, I don’t. In one way or another, I’ve fought it all my life. Creating is difficult. There’s tremendous risk of failure and embarrassment. There’s frequently not a lot of money in it (if at all). And it’s hard to explain to people what you do and who you really are.
I don’t want to put up with any of those things. I hate them. I’d rather be something easy to explain. I’d rather do something that other people were more willing to pay for. I’d rather do something that more readily gives me the money that a future wife wants.
But I don’t have any choice. I have to create things. When I don’t, I start dying.
As with so many creators, I struggle with the question of whether I’m an artist. Honestly, I’m afraid I am, but I feel like a fake to say so. Artists are those who paint or sculpt or do something that’s displayed in galleries. My work these days is mostly for myself or friends on Facebook or something for readers here. But am I actually a writer? Am I an artist?

Why are we uncomfortable when other people aren’t much like us?
You finally have to stop making excuses for people who hurt you
Family seemed perfectly typical, but I felt envious of their lives
When people push inner buttons, it’s easy to spiral down into dark
Friend’s happy family and career remind me how good life can be
What role does shame play in turning kids from lives of crime?
Trendy ‘anti-racists’ don’t realize they’ve been conned by Marxists