I sometimes disappoint myself. I guess we all do sometimes, but I don’t know what it’s like to be inside your secret thoughts. I can’t see the dark lust you might have hidden in your heart.
But I know the dark longings that come from my ego — and I often have to remind myself who I am. And what my values are.
I crave attention. I lust for success. I want money and adulation from others. Despite the insecure parts of me which question my value, my ego secretly whispers that I deserve all these things. Deep down, I believe I’m great.
In such moments of weakness, I have to remind myself what matters.
Let me tell you about an artist who I admire greatly. There’s an excellent chance you’ve never heard of Steve Taylor. He was a brilliant rock musician in the 1980s and early ’90s whose music was aimed at the Christian market. He rocked hard. His lyrics were razor-sharp and witty. He mocked sacred cows inside the church and in modern culture, too.
Only a small group of weirdos in the church understood what he was doing. Most people were scandalized by him or simply didn’t understand what it was all about. I loved his work.

My need to make others perfect reflects my fear I’m not in control
Jesse Jackson Jr. demands Obama hire 15 million unemployed Americans
Years later, I see that I was an outsider who could never fit in
Just $12 fed mom and her girls, but bigger challenges lie ahead
Depression can be mind’s way of saying, ‘Hey, we’re way off track’
Epiphany: My message changed when I selected a new audience
Am I betraying the truth if I don’t preach to the converted each day?
I’m weary of degenerate society where my values aren’t welcome