It was mid-afternoon Saturday. I was in the shower getting ready to go over to someone’s house on a social visit for the evening. The phone rang in the next room and my mind had an immediate thought.
“It’s probably her!” I thought.
I’ve had this experience over and over. When my phone rings, I think it’s her. When I hear that I have a new email, I think it’s from her. I even have the same thought — “Maybe it’s something she sent” — when there’s something unexpected in my mailbox.
This isn’t rational. I have no reason to expect to hear from her. But because something in me expects it — every single day — I can’t help believing that it’s about to come true.
For right or for wrong, I have strong images of who I am and what my future will be. What people see on the outside isn’t always what I see on the inside. Like the cat who stalks his prey believing he’s a lion, I see myself as a world conquerer.
Anger and hatred come from hurt — and fear of being hurt again
Getting better at all I do is only way to fight ‘imposter syndrome’
Depression can be mind’s way of saying, ‘Hey, we’re way off track’
Future reality starts in what we believe inside about who we are
I’m losing need to explain myself to those who misunderstand me
I’m trying to silence inner critic who says I ought to be perfect